No news today, just more waiting. I don't know if the appointment with the lawyer in California happened today or not. I'm fantasizing that my mom had a moment of clarity and outright refused to sign anything. I'm also fantasizing of beating my brother to a bloody pulp with my bare hands. He managed to get mom's social security checks re-routed to his address without telling me, leaving the joint account she & I have with a negative balance, as an insurance premium was charged to it today and the s.s. check which would have been directly deposited today never arrived. I was going to change that over anyhow, as the check needs to stay with her since it is no longer needed to pay property taxes on the house. Point is that my brother made the change without even telling me & with no regard to the effect that change has on any other bills connected with that account. He also doesn't seem to care that he has basically put me out on the street as well. Bastard.
Here's my prediction & for my mother's sake, I hope I'm wrong. I'll give it one year before my brother's wife decides she's had enough of the role of primary caregiver, and enough of my brother. She'll divorce him, take off with half his share of my mother's money, and leave him to take care of his house, his business, and my mom. Of course mom will be unable to go into a nursing home because neither of my brothers will have set aside the money for it. I suppose at that point my phone will ring. I was planning to set that money aside right now - right off the top of the sale. My brother is doing everything in his power to make sure that doesn't happen. I wish I knew why. This whole situation makes me sick.
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Thursday, March 3, 2005
So It's Come to This
I'm not in a good place. Somewhere akin to a forest grey & smoldering after a huge fire. Mentally, I mean. Physically, I'm safe in the house of loved ones, typing on a borrowed keyboard. Most of my possessions are in a moving truck on the way to Los Angeles. The remaining items are in my car, packed so tightly that nothing shifts nor rattles as I drive. The house my dad & grandfathers built is empty and abandoned. Papers that should have been signed Monday have not been drawn up yet, and my hand may not sign them at all. Tomorrow my brother will bring our mother to an attorney's office in California with the intent of having her sign a document revoking my Power of Attorney, and placing that power in his hands. Mom is confused & thinks my brother is being helpful by making this change - since he is in California & I am all the way across the country. I tried to explain to her yesterday that my brother's actions have forced the closing to be delayed, are forcing me to stay in New Jersey, and that I am living out of my car. She doesn't understand & can't imagine why her son would do such a thing. Nor can I.
My brother intends to obtain Power of Attorney & then follow my mom's wishes for distribution of the funds, which allocates zero dollars for nursing home care. I pray she doesn't sign those papers tomorrow. I don't know what is going to happen to her, to me, to any of us. My relationship with my brother & his wife is over. That much I know. Not only has he sat idly while I cleared the house, painted it, packed & moved everything by myself, and went into debt doing it - now he has stabbed me in the back as well.
I wasn't going to write any of this here. It's too personal, too painful, and may end up in a courtroom. However, it is my life. I refuse to retreat into isolation & if this is what's going on, then this is what I'm going to write about. Isolation kills. If you've got prayers, please send them. Looking forward to the day when I can be less of a drama queen. Really. I must have been a fucking horrible person in a past life or something, because I've been given more than my share of fucked up life experiences. Ok, I'm going to stop rambling now.
Off to bed, then wake up tomorrow & wait for a phone call telling me if I can leave this place. If she signs, there is no reason for me to stay.
www.ladyalchemy.com
Comments:
oh my god!I totally thought you were here,I should have called!listen,you are a PHENOMINAL person..not a DRAMA QUEEN at all!I cant beleive all this has happened,I will definatly ,pray,pray and pray!!(((huggs ))) and more (((huggs)))
Posted by: Astar March 03, 2005 at 10:46 AM
My brother intends to obtain Power of Attorney & then follow my mom's wishes for distribution of the funds, which allocates zero dollars for nursing home care. I pray she doesn't sign those papers tomorrow. I don't know what is going to happen to her, to me, to any of us. My relationship with my brother & his wife is over. That much I know. Not only has he sat idly while I cleared the house, painted it, packed & moved everything by myself, and went into debt doing it - now he has stabbed me in the back as well.
I wasn't going to write any of this here. It's too personal, too painful, and may end up in a courtroom. However, it is my life. I refuse to retreat into isolation & if this is what's going on, then this is what I'm going to write about. Isolation kills. If you've got prayers, please send them. Looking forward to the day when I can be less of a drama queen. Really. I must have been a fucking horrible person in a past life or something, because I've been given more than my share of fucked up life experiences. Ok, I'm going to stop rambling now.
Off to bed, then wake up tomorrow & wait for a phone call telling me if I can leave this place. If she signs, there is no reason for me to stay.
www.ladyalchemy.com
Comments:
oh my god!I totally thought you were here,I should have called!listen,you are a PHENOMINAL person..not a DRAMA QUEEN at all!I cant beleive all this has happened,I will definatly ,pray,pray and pray!!(((huggs ))) and more (((huggs)))
Posted by: Astar March 03, 2005 at 10:46 AM
Monday, February 21, 2005
There's a Hole in the Internet
I fell through it & landed in a world of palm trees & sunshine. It was fun. I think I'll go back there very soon.
Monday, February 7, 2005
The Alchemist
Woo Hoo!! John Paras of Medusa Tattoo NYC put this beautiful piece of art on my arm last night. It's the alchemical symbol for lead I've been planning to get for a few months now. I love it! Thank you, John!Thanks also to Michele for enticing me away from Camp Freddy Radio last night & convincing me to go to Manhattan to wander for several hours instead. We had so much fun! Aside from the tattoo, we got into a parking space standoff, took a bunch of photos, reminisced of kidnappings, public peeing & other shenanigans. I even pulled out a murder story I had never told her before (it wasn't me, I swear!), when my memory was jogged by a scary man preaching at the corner of Tompkins Square Park. Was tres excited to see NIN posters plastered about town and a Joe Strummer mural painted on the outside wall of the old Wah Wah Hut. I'm going to miss that City. Suppose I can always come back for a visit though.
Comments:
Looks great; props to John P. as usual. So listen; Raffertys calling on Thursday and I'm eating everything. You won't get the Car(go) until the wedding, then. Miss ya already, you Caxtress.
Posted by: King Cack February 08, 2005 at 09:14 PM
Sunday, February 6, 2005
Downtime
The past few days have been pretty hectic as far as making phone calls & running errands to prepare for the move, so tonight I took a little bit of time to decompress. Took some photos of the sun setting near South Middlebush Road. Pretty sky. Went grocery shopping with Penny & bought really sinful yummy things to eat (General Tso's Chicken and New York Super Fudge Chunk, baby!) & then went to Blockbuster & rented The Village. Wow! I was expecting (hoping) to be scared by it, but it was nothing like what I expected. The cinematography was STUNNING! What a gorgeous-looking film. Countless frames would hold their own as still photos on a gallery wall. The scene of Lucien & Ivy sitting on the porch would make a great painting. Now you've got to see the movie to figure out the reference. HA! The characters were likeable & the story interesting enough to ponder long after the credits stopped rolling. I'd like to see it again.www.ladyalchemy.com
Wednesday, February 2, 2005
OMG, It's the Hotel 17, Hollywood Style
Yes, I'm scamming my post tonight directly from Craig's List. I swear, this has to be the L.A. equivalent to the old Hotel 17 where I lived in NYC. I'm nostalgic, but not that nostalgic. I'd like my tv & internet in my own room, thank you. And my kitty & car come with me. Funny ad, though...
$650 - Historic Hollywood bldg. now renting- Creative types encouraged!
The Gershwin Hollywood at 5533 Hollywood Blvd (at Western Ave) is now renting BACHELOR apartments for $650 a month with a $750 deposit to move in. All utilities paid. Month to month lease. We have a laundry room, TV room, vending machines, internet in lobby and are conveniently located half a block from Ralphs, Starbucks, Blockbuster, major buslines and across the street from the underground. We also have a cool new bar and art gallery next door as well. Artists and musicians encouraged to apply! You can go to www.gershwinhollywood.com for photos and come by anytime to pick up an application from the front desk. Sorry, no pets, no parking.
http://www.ladyalchemy.com/
$650 - Historic Hollywood bldg. now renting- Creative types encouraged!
The Gershwin Hollywood at 5533 Hollywood Blvd (at Western Ave) is now renting BACHELOR apartments for $650 a month with a $750 deposit to move in. All utilities paid. Month to month lease. We have a laundry room, TV room, vending machines, internet in lobby and are conveniently located half a block from Ralphs, Starbucks, Blockbuster, major buslines and across the street from the underground. We also have a cool new bar and art gallery next door as well. Artists and musicians encouraged to apply! You can go to www.gershwinhollywood.com for photos and come by anytime to pick up an application from the front desk. Sorry, no pets, no parking.
http://www.ladyalchemy.com/
Tuesday, February 1, 2005
Anyone Looking for an Art Model?
Yeah, I know. Posting them here won't do me much good. I don't think anyone reads this thing. Oh well. Maybe I'll get brave & post them somewhere else. I took these Saturday & I really like them.www.ladyalchemy.com
Comments:
nice:)ill help you when you get here....
Posted by: Astar February 01, 2005 at 05:34 PM
Thanks! I'm going to take you up on that! :)
Posted by: Alchemy February 01, 2005 at 08:29 PM
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